All the attraction, the tension. says:
remember its only 9 then must reach school k!
syaheeda-I see losers losing everywhere says:
yup
syaheeda-I see losers losing everywhere says:
cos its your bday..so chor huat let us come at 9!!

i always knew that principle of mine has a soft spot for me... hahahaha

syaheeda-I see losers losing everywhere says:
1hr plus to your birthday!!!
syaheeda-I see losers losing everywhere says:
: )

16th birthday! yay baby's bringing me to the coffee club to eat tomorrow. can't wait! oh yeah and he got me this DAMN FUCKING CUTE TURTLE THING FROM oh ok nvm i just remembered i alr blogged about it..

so anyway i just came back from the doc. there was this fucking huge bump, which most probably is an insect bite, on my left thigh. got it when i was in malaysia but when i came back it was just like a small mosquito bite. but it swelled like hell and mom panicked and sent me to the clinic.

i almost got turned away at the clinic -.- dunno what kind of fucking clinic me and mom went at 9:40 and it stated that it closes at 10pm. then when we arrived at the clinic the nurse told us that the registration closed alr. WTF? i was freaking pissed. what kind of doc is that, turning patients away. so anyway i was like giving the i-cannot-believe-this laugh, slammed my hand on the counter and walked away. yeah but in the end my mom kept talking to the nurse and she went to talk to the doctor and they allowed me to be the last patient. BUT WHAT WAS THE MOST INFURIATING THING WAS when this couple came in with their sick baby. BABY. and the fucking cute baby was fucking sick and the doctor turned them away. WTF? and it wasn't even 10 la -.- eaqgndskbf smdagbepp

i spent thirty bucks on cab fare today. yes i know i should be shot :( i can buy soooo many things with thirty bucks...

almost lost my wallet today :( bliss went all the way, up four storeys, just to help me look for it. damn sweet! haha yeah but she couldn't find it. in the end i got it from the clerk in the general office. apparently some cleaner found it phew my IC was inside.

eh fuck the bump's really damn big...

saw this damn nice adidas jacket at sportslink...

i actually cried when i saw some old man walking damn slowly. cos his right foot was grown sideways so he was having difficulty walking. and yea so i cried and baby laughed at me :s lol?

can't remember what else i wanted to say... gonna lie down now. promise that there'll be pictures tomorrow! :D haha i'll take a picture of the stuffed toy if i remember :D its damn fucking cute la. okok byebye.

HEHE EH JUST FIVE MORE MINUTES TO MY BDAY! (yes i know i took a bloody long time to blog)

i love rainy days especially if its during the evening & at night. soooo much colder and i wanna go nap now. rare chance to get a weather like that heh and i'm going to hug the turtle baby bought me yesterday. ITS FUCKING CUTE EUGHHHHHHHH!

eh haha ok i promise to blog later ok. at night. promise. promise. ok byebye

i can't remember the last time i've had such a good sleep before. if you minus off the fact that i was forced to wake up to answer a telephone call, it was perfect. really felt that i was resting my mind and body and stuff. ok i soooo do not sound like me.

anyway! i had a damn funny dream. i went to buy a kit-kat from some store. it wasn't even a chunky. had just four sticks inside. and and the person was like 'nine thousand three hundred and sixty two dollars please thank you'. then i was taking a dollar coin out then i heard the price then i was like HUH??! then the guy laughed like shit. lol.

eh and ya know, i think people who add me on msn, then message me stuff like 'Hello. You are?' very funny. either they're trying to be funny, or they're really that funny.

i screwed up my literature paper. i answered three questions when we were only supposed to answer two. furthermore i only wrote like a few lines for my question one? and they're gonna take my question one as my section A......... FUCKING HELL. breioasgnsdpmgpaon][aqg[adb f

and i couldn't sleep last night. tossed and turned until like 5am. eugh its like i was dreaming but at the same time subconsciously awake. the feeling sucks. neither here nor there.

and i dreamt of some weird stuff like walking on a road full of those chinese praying things. joss sticks, incense paper, ashes and all. then i was trying my best to avoid stepping on them but it was impossible cos the entire pavement was literally filled with it.

kc! i dreamt of you! we went to the arcade together and you kept wanting to use the computer instead of playing daytona with me :( (yes, apparently, the computer needed those tokens in order to work...)

i really need to take a nap now. suddenly i'm having a huuuuuuge headache. when i wake up i'm gonna study my Joy Luck Club. ciao

ewww check out the blood man. i've had enough of 'today', which is suppose to be a sunday but its alr a monday but i don't really care. i wanna go sleep. i love sitting for exams without any preparation at all. fucking shit. i'm getting hooked on yada-yada-hahaha-don't-wanna-tell-you again. my close friends should know. if you don't know then you're not my close friend. :( hahahha no la i'm just kidding. no really. aiya fuck la what shit am i talking about. night.

NOOOOOOO ok byebye hahaha i'm a little unstable up there. just kidding. actually not really. hahaha eh shit la i really need to sleep. and i seem to be really really fond of amusing myself. wtf.

heyo. i just uploaded the pics from msia to my computer. but stupid blogger doesn't seem to be working and i'm too lazy to log into my photobucket :( so.... TOMORROW OK. i promise :( haha

anyway i was a total retard today. i spent alot of time deciding what to wear to the airport. (to pick my mommy up!) then i showered and changed and all. then. i decided i didn't want to go. hahahahaha ok not funny. retarded like hell.

ok hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. nothing. love love love! haha byebye. ok fuck i sound like an idiot.

August

Outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. No self-control. Kind hearted. Self-confident. Loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. Easy to get along with and talk to. Has an "every thing's peachy" attitude. Likes talking and singing. Loves music. Daydreamer. Easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. Loves to be loved. Hates studying. In need of "that someone". Longs for freedom. Rebellious when withheld or restricted. Lives by "no pain no gain". caring. Always a suspect. Playful. Mysterious. "charming" or "beautiful" to everyone. stubborn. curious. Independent. Strong willed. A fighter.

oooooooh.

eh. i was trying to roll up my trackpants hahaha
at e bridge of kl twin tower


back in sg! :)

eh i'm effing sad now please. hahahaha! k i should stop laughing whenever i'm sad. :( i know i'm sucha freak.

i miss you. :( :( :(

i asked the pretty dumb magic 8 ball some questions just now. yes i know i'm dumb to do that and its even dumber to believe what it tells me.

and i'm still sad. hahahaha. ok no i should stop it.

taken around january this year :x

i just uploaded all the videos i have inside photobucket. youtube is kinda overrated to me. usually all i can see is a bunch of pixels... k i'm exaggerating but you get the point right. anyway i'll be posting the vids one by one yeah. as for this vid, you HAVE to look closely to get what we were laughing about. hehe

egeog test wasn't THAT difficult, considering that i fell asleep while trying to study through the night. bleurgh.

hehe was super happy during school today. the girls should know why! :D

i love i love! :D

mommy's in thailand :( who's going to do the housework!!!

NO! not me! not me...

gonna burn the midnight oil tonight. gonna study for elective geog. i'm soo determined to get below twenty points for prelims.

eh yeah the school's pretty nice to me aye. i get to sit for the papers (chinese paper II, ss, emath paper I, sub chem) i missed during the sept holidays. i get so much more time to study as compared to the rest.

english oral wasn't too bad :P the topic was SHOPPING! HAHAHAHA omgomg damn fun to talk about. i ranted on and on until my examiners were smiling. they asked relatively simple questions like 'when was the last time you went shopping.' so i happily said on tuesday i went to klcc etc etc etc hehehe. i love i love i love!

ran into bangz at the bus stop after oral. bugger lit an orange ciggie in front of me -.-

OMG happy happy! :D :D :D

ผม รัก คุณ <3>

hi all. just came back from school. the paper ended at 9 haha but i have to go back for my english oral at two later. :( :( :(

left bukit jalil sports school at 9am yesterday. the thailand people all helped us carry our bags down. then i cried when we had to leave. then pennapa (cos all of us had our own very good thai friend and mine was her. she's thailand's libero. hahaha yeah i know. the irony right. i suck at defending) looked damn upset then she was like bernie no cry! i like you!
HAHAHA omg she's damn sweet. then she gave me this dog keychain for my handphone. then i lost it outside the school :( the hook got caught in my trackpants and the dog dropped off. sigh damn sad :( at least i have her jersey.

mmhm. we got third. HAHA ok those who went should know what i'm laughing about :P the guys got third as well. hahahhaha!

missing pe :( alot. cried on the bus then weishi comforted me haha. yeah. i still miss them.

i didn't get a chance to take pictures. there was simply too much going on. so much that i didn't have time to take pictures. only have like less than 10 pictures in the camera hahaha! will upload them soon. have to wait for nicole to pass me the cable. :(

eh yeah then it was shopping day on tuesday! my buy of the day was the adidas jacket. o.m.g. its so attractive...i feel like eating it. hahahaha. everyone said it was cool. yay haha yeah then walked around klcc and bought more stuff. will take pictures of them soon.

weishi! remember who offered me pepsi at klcc? hahahaha! shit man hahaha

oh yeah! i sat with pennapa on the bus ride to klcc. then she asked me to sing the thai songs in her mp3 player to her. haha it was damn freaking funny! jos and all kept laughing at me. kept singing the wrong lyrics & pe was like no no no! then she kept shaking her head and giving me the thumbs down. :(

anyway i should be talking about the matches we played. i've never played any match like the ones against thailand before. they're so agile and so fast & quick in their movements. definitely taught me alot of stuff that i can't learn in sg.

my room's alarm clock was peishan's tokyo drift HAHAHAH ok so random. so i always wake up to that clashing and all wtf ahhahahahahaha ok i should stop it.

---- i likeeeeeeeeee. its been an hour since i started on this post :( k i should speed up.

anyway, phim gave me his namecard during the farewell dinner. haha he was like 'only for you. phim only give you.' hahahaha damn cool please. yeah the thai people ain't that fluent in english.

i googled the school the thailand girls came from and nothing came up :( i'm really scared that if i send pennapa's present to her school it'll get lost. can't send it to her home cos she only goes home once every two or three months. they all attend some kind of boarding school; get to live there and all.

YES i know this post is super messy i keep jumping here and there but just bear with it ok :( haha.

oh yeah then we all learnt quite a bit of thai language there. hehehe damn cool i feel like taking it up :s

asumi fed me watermelon during the farewell dinner!!!! ahhhh!!! k i sound like a weirdo.

sutha was teasing me during breakfast yesterday :( cos ok nvm. i need to blog in my private blog man! hahahaha

byebye! gonna study for egeog after blogging in my other blog. k i have to create one first cos i deleted the original private blog cos of eapvjdnjesihgbosnao ok no if you wanna know just ask me.haha

i love i love i love!

the look on that face. jesus.

(i really apologise for this post. i know its daaaaamn jumbled up)

goodbye bed. goodbye table. goodbye sofa. goodbye wardrobe. goodbye room. goodbye room...ah yeah. why didn't i just say goodbye room in the first place. would have saved me some typing time :(

so anyway, i'm leaving sg for malaysia tomorrow. having a tournament there. caused alot of problems cos i'm leaving in the middle of my prelims. sooo many teachers kept shooting me the other day. but i guess everything's settled. my school's so nice :)

hahahaha i betcha my levelmates are like in their rooms mugging for the ss paper tomorrow.

mmm i still have loads to do.

Agenda of the night
- bathe
- choose books to bring to msia
- sort out notes
- study! :(
- pack!

i haven't packed any freaking thing yet :( at this rate, i should forgo sleep. i really should go offline...

WHERE'S BF :(

haha ok people i applied for auto-roaming just now :) so if anything just drop me a message yeah. try not to call. its a freaking 1 buck++ /min. for both you and me. i think so? i dunno. i'm a noob at stuff like this.

good luck for your prelims people. don't say stuff like 'wah bernie soooo lucky get to miss prelims!'
please. i have to stay back every single day after i get back until i finish clearing all my papers...

...bullfrogs.

love love! take care people. anything just drop me a message k! i'll be very very very very happy!!

hi susu. say bye to coach for me!

this is gonna be a long and boring post. bleugh. prelims are starting tomorrow!

i always get woozy when i wake up from a nap.

i woke up, panicked, thinking that i was late for school. yes i realised a few minutes later that it wasn't even morning of the next day yet.

i was getting ready to go into the showers when i realised i forgot to bring in clothes to change into. so i had to wear back my uniform, button up the blouse and all. what a hassle.

after shampooing my hair i realised i was using the conditioner to shampoo my hair instead. so i had to rinse off the conditioner, shampoo my hair, and condition my hair again.

after that, i went to wash my contact lenses. i forgot that i only wore my right lense today. so there i was, unscrewing both sides of the case and tipping everything into the sink without realising there's a blue lense inside one of the case.

so happy me went back to my room and took out my right lense, filled the right side of the lens case and closed it.

the best thing was i proceeded to pinch my left eye continuously, trying to get the lense out. but i 'couldn't fucking take the lense out'. of course i couldn't. there's no bloody lense in my left eye in the first place.

and yes my left eye is red now. what did you expect? it just got pinched for nothing :(

and the lense which i tipped out of my container? its probably somewhere down in the sewage by now.

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everything seems different now bittersweet and funny how things have turned out unexpectedly says:
hahaha did you dsa into any college?
alicia. is not well. says:
nooo
alicia. is not well. says:
hahah
alicia. is not well. says:
youre sec3 right?
alicia. is not well. says:
wha sub you take?
everything seems different now bittersweet and funny how things have turned out unexpectedly says:
i'm sec 4
alicia. is not well. says:
huh!
alicia. is not well. says:
really?
alicia. is not well. says:
oh man
everything seems different now bittersweet and funny how things have turned out unexpectedly says:
hahaha yes!
everything seems different now bittersweet and funny how things have turned out unexpectedly says:
actually
alicia. is not well. says:
you look so young!

HAHAHAHHAHAHA :D

lol ms tan just messaged me 'u passed ur chinese! gong xi ni ah! :)'
so i replied '-- only :('
then she said 'hello, it's alr very good. serious. adam n u r our school's miracles ok. :)'

:( :( :( :( i'm on the same level as an angmoh. great! just great.

just got back my chinese o level result. mmm. don't wanna talk about it :( and. i didn't tell my boy the real grade i got. i don't wanna get scolded by him :( i'm like feeling so damn annoyed by my results alr and i know he'll just be realistic and just keep scolding me and lecturing me and stuff instead of comforting me. no thanks :( and he's not feeling that great either i don't wanna make him angry by telling him i got a fucking --.

lovelove. gonna clean up my room and study. i really need to study :( really really. maybe i'll go out and study or something. too many distractions at home. way too many.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY QH! (or beverly)
you can't say i'm a bad sis anymore :P ah and stop leaving your clothes on my bed. and stop bullying me :(

just finished a jap lunch. mmmm mommy bought seasoned scallop too! chuwanmushi, miso soup, jap rice with seaweed & bonito flakes, tempura prawns!, some chicken thing, stir-fried bean sprouts with black pepper(ewww). there was crabsticks in tempura batter too omggggg ok i should stop raving about it. i feel damn full although i didn't finish my rice, didn't eat any tempura prawns nor did i even touch my chuwanmushi :( seasoned scallop is the love :D

ah shit i'm damn full now :( really really :(

k gonna study for prelims today. at least five hours of mugging :(

eh there's this nice show on tv now hehehehe ok no i must study :(

boyfriend = love! although he never seems to have time for me now :(

k i'll blog more later. ciao

was watching miss swan this afternoon. hilarious shit!

k anyway i did something in the showers today which i've not done in a very long time. i flipped the showerhead upside down. so the water sprinkled down on me. and i actually laughed. :l i'm becoming like a weirdo.

i wanna talk to my baby so badly. but he doesn't seem to wanna talk to me :(

i can't sleep. and i can't find anyone who's willing to forgo sleep and chat the morning away with me :( i lead a pretty lonely life aye.

loves. byebye

maybe i should just forget about it

just woke up. had a horrible night. kept waking up. had like 4 dreams. so i woke up at least 4 times. and my body's aching like crazy.

i was a powerpuff girl in some dream! i think it was dream number three. yeah anyway i was buttercup -.- i have no idea why don't ask me. then i did something mean to some evil witch. i can't remember her name but it starts with a G. yeah then anyway i was in my own room and blossom and bubbles were playing outside. then the damn witch kept pounding on my door i was freaking scared so i shouted to blossom to help me. then she tried to teleport me out but my stuffed toy was broken so i couldn't teleport out. yes apparently i needed it to be able to teleport -.- yeah then i broke the grills of my window and we slid down shiny green tiles to blossom's room. hehe i hate the damn witch. ok she's not real but whatever i was freaking scared in the dream k.

also dreamt about some dj. called me and asked me to tell her my story. i don't know what story :l maybe about my horrible night yesterday. hahahaahha. yeah then i said i didn't want to. then she said ok and that i can call her when i'm feeling down or anything. such a nice dream-dj right?

oh i also dreamt i went to some family gathering on my mom's side. and we had to wear gowns and all. i wore this black gown. can't remember what kc wore hahahaha. but i know the guys couldn't be bothered and most came in t-shirt and jeans. hahahahha

ok i have weird dreams.

and thanks for the lovely tags people. bernie <3s all of you very much. and yeah i'm feeling a little bit better. and kai, if you're reading this, thank you for last night. could tell you were really tired and all after doing your gp essay but thanks for being there.

gonna brush my teeth now. byebye!

i can't sleep. i keep getting a feeling everytime i lie down and try to close my eyes. its like i just woke up from a nightmare and i'm too scared to go back to sleep. that sort of feeling.

training almost killed me today. i have rashes and my legs and arms are sore. i need to rest desperately. i need to sleep.

i need to sleep :(

I wont talk
I wont breathe
I wont move till you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think I dont look
But deep inside
In the corner of my mind
Im attached to you
Im weak
Its true
Cuz im afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cuz my heart keeps falling faster

I've waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

i don't know why i'm getting emo over this song.

and yeah i couldn't get to sleep :(

what else is there left to do? everything i do = wrong. tears don't work for you anymore. it doesn't matter if its in person or over the phone.

and in the end, life screws all of us up. so what's the point of living, really. i remember posting something explaining why there's no point living life. its in my old old blog somewhere. i forgot what i said.

ok shit i need to dig that entry out. i'll go find it now and post it or something.

...

on second thoughts, i've had enough of the shit life gives me and i'm going to sleep now goodnight.

okay for some reason the dracula tag is freaking me out a little. :l

and i just realised the colour combination of my manicure looks very childish. i look at it and i think of some barbie doll which comes with a nail painting set.
its like a french manicure. except i have a metallic purple base. and i topped the white tip with sparkly dots. ok its so not a french manicure? ok it does sound pretty horrible but whatever i just hope the teachers don't make me remove it.

you know the saying "true love never dies"? i used to think that it is bullshit. (to you: like me. remember?) but now i kinda think its true.

and shit i just remembered that i was supposed to get my passport photo done today.

was supposed to go to the acsi musical thing today. then. sigh nvm don't wanna blog about it.

i have a private blog! haha. but i don't know the link :l cos when they asked for the link of the blog i just randomly pushed buttons. so yeah i just go there to type all my frustrations out, publish, and sign out.

a bit pointless. really.

prelims prelims prelims! :( :( :(

i hate filing :( i wanna burn all my worksheets.

in some shit with mc now. blah. byebye

just kinda yelled at my daddy. cos i full-screened me and baby's convo. yeah then he came into my room and asked what am i doing then he peered at my monitor for damn long. got kinda pissed cos its like invasion of privacy. dunno what happened to me i just got really freaking irritated then i just yelled at him to stop it and all. expected him to yell back at me then instead he just walked out of my room silently, went to his own room and closed his door. i feel damn fucking bad now i'm actually crying like hell as i type all of this now. don't know why. his morale & self-esteem has been pretty low ever since his business failed and yeah i just made it worse. feeling damn fucking guilty now i feel like apologising to him :'( i don't know what to do :(

where's my baby :( eat noodles never come comfort me :'(