Day 11

you know you really miss someone when you start googling their name :(

community.livejournal.com/sgsecrets/

"You and I know we're so much more than just friends.
Yet you introduce me to your people as your friend or cousin.
Well, I'M NOT.
IT KILLS ME WHEN YOU SAY THAT.
Can't i be your girlfriend in public?
Or are you just embarassed to be with me?
You make me cry. Hard."



Replies

Anonymous: i can feel you.

in fact when his friends caught me talking to him though he initiated the conversation, he told them that i was a psycho bitch stalking him.

sigh. that was really the end.


Anonymous: omgwtfbbq seriously?! what a jerk.


Anonymous: psycho bitch?!?!??! he s the fucking jerk I must say!!!!!!

next time when he talks to you, tell him, "you enjoy talking to psycho bitches that much eh?"

KILL HIM LAH SERIOUSLY.



i couldn't stop laughing at the last postee. anyway its a cool site where people submit their secrets in a form of self-made postcards. some secrets really make me sad but there's some which does otherwise. like this guy. who put up a picture of a tongue piercing minus the stud and wrote "I lost my stud while eating ur pu$$y... i think its still in there somewhere."

...WHAT A SECRET HAHAHAHA

Day 6

wasn't successful in my JPSAE application for NP's Psychology & Community Services.

it's like one of my feet's already in St. Francis hahahaha have to wait for the postings to come out to see if i got into TP's law and management... which has only like a one percent chance? oh screw it i think my whole body's in St. Francis already.

so right now till till late march (?), i'll be lazing around doing nothing... probably practicing some emath hahahaha.

ok school stuff aside, has anyone seen a cute handsome chinese australian boy walking around lately? he stays in holland and studies in one of singapore's top schools. if someone sees him do tell him i miss him. alot.

went back to school yesterday. had some farewell celebration thing for the people who were leaving nyjc (e.g. ME :( ). ate a pizza and went to sleep hahahahaha the literature room's so comfortable. ended up sleeping for the whole of common lunch period.

fever of 38.1 degrees. been sleeping since 7pm yesterday, only getting up for my medication. going back to sleep now bye

think i took the puking thing a little too far... been experiencing some sorta weird pains in my stomach. hope there's nothing wrong with me.

almonds make my throat dry which induced coughing which leads to sleepless nights. so i've decided to go to back to school today hahhaha bye

Day 3

In point form...

• woke up at 3pm
• went shopping with mom :)
• bought a black crop jacket... that's all. haha surprise surprise.
• ate yakun for breakfast / lunch / tea time... whatever
• jer called just as i was about to head home to ask if i wanted to watch the Protege
• met jer and nat at serangoon mrt and we headed down to The Cathay
• nat screwed up the timeslots so we caught Epic Movie instead...
• ...which sucked like hell i'll give it a negative popcorn out of five popcorns man hahaha. what a waste of mom's $6.50 + my 90 minutes
• headed down to plaza singapura to have a really late dinner of ljs (grilled cajun chicken!!) and service sucked. practically chasing us out by switching off the front lights and pulling down all the shutters except for one...
• took the escalator down to the mrt and saw something which made all three of us laugh
• nat and jer even took turns taking a picture with it.
• i ran off laughing hahahaha couldn't bear to look.
  
  This was what we saw.... (sorry bro i'll borrow your picture for a minute hahaha)
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  

fishing anyone? :)

i'm doing sit-ups now hahahaha while listening to all the songs he sent me. from 2003 (some song by bloodhound gang haha) all the way to 2007. i lost a song called miss hilton by penfifteen club though :( one of the first few songs he sent me k...other than that i think i've got all of them. k gtg do more sit-ups. i spoke to him on the phone just now. beams. happy bernie.

Day 2

relatively fun day today :) was at my uncle's house the entire day. a couple of my cousin's friends were playing blackjack with my uncle as the banker and boy was my uncle's luck extraordinary today. he claimed its because i'm wearing yellow cos the moment i sat beside him he kept getting aces and there was one round where he got two aces and this poor guy had to fork out $45 dollars and that's for just one round! the whole group left the table pretty soon... lost all their money haha. my uncle was delighted and soon a second group came but they didn't fare any better hahahaha

played mahjong with wilson, weishan and kh's friend after that. twas my first time playing with money and i won $21 :)

i ate so much today :( cherries, chocolates, crackers, desserts, satay, sushi, sweets, winglets, fishballs etc etc so i came home and puked out whatever i could. felt so much better after that. that's what i always say hahaha

Day 1

had a pretty sleepless night. went to bed at around two but managed to properly fall asleep at about 7am. spent the time in between trying to sleep, finally sleeping, but waking up a few minutes later. that sort of irritating thing which i'm sure many have experienced before.

jer called me shortly after i woke up. cried over the phone. cabbed over to far east shopping center to meet claudia. cab fare: whopping fifteen bucks. watched jer, nat and colin play pool for a while until i broke down and went outside with claudia for a while. thanks for being there claud <3>. caught the movie Just Follow Law. not bad at all for a local movie.

after the movie, claud and colin went off to have dinner together while nat, jer and i headed to paya lebar for jeremy's bbq. saw familiar faces like kingsley, kenneth, joey and well jeremy haha. i think the food and laughter distracted me from thinking about stuff cos the moment we were all at the bus stop waiting for our respective buses, i broke down again. sigh. imu.

i never knew you could actually phsyically feel a heartache...until now.

see you in two years or so. i'll miss you. i really will.

fred ferkels at almost 4 in the morning. feeling really... down. sick on cny. not feeling well. at all. didn't buy any new clothes. can't be bothered to. for some reason this cny doesn't feel like a cny. oh well. i'm schoolless. haha. mmm. gonna close down this stupid thing soon... really have zilch mood to blog. having an eye infection. gained about three kg (hahaha). going on a diet soon. a diet which includes fred ferkels. i think they're the nicest gummy sweets alive. its by katjes (their yoghurt gums suck btw). 'you give love a bad name' is on repeat. i tried to do that whole self-induced vomiting thing. not that it didn't work everything did come out (in reverse order it was kinda cool...haha) but i still gained the weight anyway. weird. i know. and i didn't enjoy it one bit. nose waters and tears will leak out and your eyes will get all red and you still feel really full whatever the point is it was terrible. i wanna go down to 60kg. my ideal weight haahha but it seems so far away. mumsie saw the cuts she was so hurt. she didn't have to tell me but it was kinda obvious. said i'm cutting her flesh which is kinda true cos she made me. not touching the bloody blade anymore. its rusty anyway. i might die. which isn't that bad a thing actually. i can't think of anything/anyone to live for.

although its hard and scares me so,
a life without you scares me more.

highlights of the day!

bf sent a gigantic card, a female snoogle and a metal box filled with roses to nyjc
(sent him a bouquet of red+blue roses, chocolates, heart-shaped brownies and an extra stalk of red rose to his school as well.)

we dined at paragon's crystal jade palace for dinner. we were like the only kids there :(

baby sent me home after that! well... almost. to hougang. haha. hope he's on the cab home now.

i'm broke. no money left at all for this week. we'll see how i'll cope. i'll most probably succumb to temptation and withdraw $$$.

HAPPY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY, CHAN (haha)

Disappointment.

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told you miracles doesn't come my way...

a quick post before i leave to collect my O level result slip. crap. i'm not even feeling scared or whatsoever. i more or less know what kind of grades i'm going to get. all i can hope for is a miracle which i doubt will come true cos i'm the most unlucky person alive (more about that in the next post) and miracles just don't come my way.

anyhow, i do wanna thank the people who wished me luck. i really do appreciate it but even luck won't help me now.

headed back to school yesterday to tell mrs lim to give me my results seperately. so i won't be getting it together with my classmates. hahaha had to practically plead with her man. so after everyone clears from the school i'll be going down to the staff room to collect it. don't want people asking me how much i got...

if i can't get twenty point and/or below (there's like a 99.9percent chance of that), i'll definitely retake Os. wanna take A levels. and i'd rather waste one year now than screw up my future by doing a profession i'm not satisfied with.

meeting mom later. we're going over to don to have crab noodles, irregardless of the grades i get. she got me this england jacket from adidas although i gotta get it changed cos its currently too big for me. i love mom. and my dad. they've been really supportive.

k gotta run now. gonna get ready and head back to school to see all my classmates and such :)