Byebye blogspot.

Not enough sleep + hurt right wrist (I can't even slice an orange properly lah damnit) + no brekkie + 1st training in A MONTH = a very very off-form and frustrated Bernie during training today. I swear I was so close to tears due to exhaustion. Am really unfit after not training excessively for so long.

Dad just came to my room to weigh himself again. He's 89 now. Was 100+ last December. That's so amazing it's scary.

Jack Johnson's Always Together is currently on repeat in my player. Love the lyrics and haha it's such a soothing song! So much that sometimes it puts me to sleep and that's a feat considering how hard it is for me to fall into slumber lately.

Was at Barker yesterday when I saw MC's mom! ZOMGG she was standing just a few feet away from me. I didn't dare to look at her for too long just in case she recognises me.

Zoe just told me Natalie scored 6 points for Os. After deducting all the bonus points, she's about a two pointer. Guess where she went. Guess guess guess guess guess!...
...NYP. Like wtf her L1R4 is effectively about 1 point and she goes to a poly. We were saying that it's really cos of people like her that some of us can't make it to a poly. Bleugh.

Got a lecture from Dad yesterday. And Mom, just in case you're reading this, I REALLY WAS AT NEWTON LAST NIGHT ALRIGHT. It irks me when I'm speaking the truth but you think I'm lying. I don't even club omg why would you think I was clubbing. Sooo many teens now visit those sort of places and I DON'T. When was the last time I lied to you guys? And be glad that I accept that I can never ever stayover at a chalet/friend's place, no matter what occasion it is. Some other kids would get soooo mad, God knows what they'll do. Grrr if I blogged about this right after the lecture, trust me there'd be a whole lot here. Like how you guys expect me to do better than my bros. As if that's not some form of pressure. And I've always thought you guys were the most understanding and best set of parents ever. Don't let this view of mine change. Thank you.

More about yesterday in my new blog. Haha yes I've moved! If you're smart enough you'd be going to my friendster profile. Hahaha TC all esp to those anons who view my blog! If you want to know my new blog addy, just drop me a comment with your email yeah. (cos non-friends can't view my friendster)

So, byebye blogspot! You've been an amazing companion for the last 4 years!

Guys, realize that the girl holding onto you,
is PERFECT in her own special way.

The way she laughs,
The way she sleeps,
The way she loves you,
The way she tries to please you.

Always remember that.

She can always get up and walk away,
getting someone else who can love her more.

For all you know,
there is someone out there wooing her already,
but she is rejecting
a maybe perfect love for her.

There might also be someone out there,
who is willing to love her more than
you are loving her now,
fufill her every need and love her
as much as she loves you.

Understand that,
She loves you not because you are
good looking,
have money,
buy her things,
make her parents happy,
or that you have a car.

She loves you for who you are.
Your every touch, every word you say,
everything you do.

Guys,
Cherish and appreciate your girl.
Don't break her fragile heart.
She is the only one who can love you that way.
You won't wanna regret letting go of
that special girl you have.
For everything she has done for you.
the least you can do is to give her
unconditional love
as she has given to you.

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Dysthymia:	Slight-Moderate
Bipolar Disorder:	Very High
Cyclothymia:	Extremely High
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Postpartum Depression:	N/A
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Ayooooo.

Ok let me explain. I went to take a little nap at twelve-thirty in the afternoon. The nap turned out to be one hellava nap cos I woke up at 8pm. Sigh. Gotta do kowtows to my biological clock. Beg it to go back to normal.

Dad went to check St Francis and MDIS out today. Wasn't very impressed by both. He's going to go check out more private schools tomorrow. Yay I love Dad.

I just ordered macdonalds. Hahahaha damnit :(

HAAAA you have no idea how happy I am right now. Reason: My biological clock is back to normal! Went to bed at around 9++ close to 10pm last night and I just woke up! Success! Now, why can't my diets be as successful...

So anyway, I did a whole lot of things yesterday. Was out the whole day. And I didn't get any sleep the night before so that's how I managed to go to bed at 9+ last night!

Went to meet Nic at Potong Pasir MRT at 9:30AM. She was like 30 minutes late... :( but that's ok I guess. Not really fussy about latecomers unless I'm in a bad mood. After that, we headed to HM's condominium to swim. I swear, I was being sucha noob in the pool. Haven't swam for ages. We headed to the sauna before showering. I couldn't stand the heat; kept wanting to go out and HM was restriciting me to do so :( so I had to get burnt there and now I have patches of burnt skin all over my body JUST KIDDING hahahahaha am kinda glad I did so it's actually quite alright once you stay inside there for a long time.

Headed to Plaza Sing with Nic after that. Had SUBWAY! Cold cut trioooo. And I finally tried their cookies! Not really crazy over it. Am wondering why sooo many people (like Adam and Cheryl) loves it so much. Shopped around, didn't manage to get anything except a black t-shirt from Outfitter. Nic got a tube from Dorothy Perkins though. She loves it sooo much was beaming the entire time after that haha.

Walked over to Braun Buffel at Meritus Mandarin. And I finally bought this wallet I had my eyes on since last December. The price increased slightly since last Dec though but I bought it anyway. It's so gorgeous! Hahahaha amg I'm admiring it now as I type all this down.

Did the usual shop around town. Bought a pair of peep-toe flats. Cos it fits me. HAHA it's so hard to buy shoes for me cos I have really big feet. So usually when I find something I really like which fits me I'll buy it without hesitation :D still doesn't result in many pairs of shoes though. Like what Sya once said, really envy those girls who can walk into a shoeshop and take this shoe off display, try it on, and ask the salesperson for one size bigger/smaller whereas we have to ask for their biggest size HAHAHA amg :(

I couldn't find this top I want. Many shop assistants told me it was all over Far East last year. Gee thanks but I want it NOW. Guess I have to find it online or something then.

Went off to Ikea to meet my mom and bro at around 6. I reached there at 8. Don't ask. Went to shop for loads of stuff. We need a new bed (cos Grandma's coming over to stay during the weekend!), a new wardrobe for me (everyone agreed that I need a bigger wardrobe. HAHA do the math figure out what that means), a full length mirror and a new shoe rack. But basically, we were noting down the measurements of EVERYTHING we were interested in LOL.

Had dinner there after that. Was my first time dining at Ikea. Aye don't laugh :( Finally had the meatballs! Couldn't finish it but it was really good. Had chicken wings as well. It's... Pretty normal. And I realised I tried the poached salmon before when someone had it takeaway and the packaging + presentation looked so familiar to me. It was when... Argh forget it ask me if you want. Shall not think about it. Bought hot dogs for Dad and bro and cabbed home after that cos Mom was expecting a call from a pastor at 9 and it was already close to 9.

Going down to St. Francis tomorrow with Mom. Really wonder if they'll accept a student when one term is already over. Highly doubt so. Fingers crossed though. Wish me all the best! :)

Gee I took an hour to type this down :l Going to practice some emath today! You're currently reading a future 6-pointer's blog yo :D

Am doing sit-ups and crunches in my room at 6:30AM. Still gotta go meet Nicole at 9:30AM.

GG.

Well the song Be With You is still, obviously, stuck in my head. For some reason. And honestly, I'd really loveeee it if someone sends me the song Be With You/Rhythm Divine/Escape on MSN. I can't seem to find it anywhere... All by Enrique Iglesias. Ping me if you have them alright ;)

Yeah and I know you love the teletubbies version of Candy Shop (view post before this if you don't know what I'm talking about).

It's official. I'm moving my blog! It's still under construction so till then I'll still be blogging here.

And yes, I'm still having trouble with my internal body clock. Frowns.

Honestly, the postings of JAE doesn't really bother me. Cos I already know the outcome of my application... Dang. Will be going down to SFM someday this week with hopefully Mom. Haven't asked her yet though. Yeah but I know people like Kai would really like me to study there. Cos it's so near HCI hahahahaa we can go down to Island Creamery or something to study together.

Nothing much to say today. Bye.

( I can't sleep and i'm up all night
Through these tears I try to smile
I know the touch of your hand
Can save my life
Don't let me down
Come to me now
I got to be with you some how )
This was how I really felt on Saturday but you wouldn't know/care, would you.

Candy Shop

Enrique Iglesias. Was a really big fan of his when I was young. Primary school. Can't remember exactly when but it was when I heard his single, Rhythm Divine. Fantastic song as well. Yeah so I was in the showers and suddenly just out of the blue I started singing Be With You. HAHA I have no idea how after so many years I still remember the lyrics. Hurr. Anyway I have nothing much to say today. Enjoy the song. Cheers.

I did not sleep AT ALL. I watched tv till about 7am, cooked Mom and Dad breakfast (Hot dogs w scrambled eggs!), plastic wrapped it and left it on their table as they were still sleeping, dried the dishes from last night, put them away, ironed and folded the laundry, took out the thrash, and settled down in the couch to watch cartoons. Haha. Been awake for thirty hours and counting. Big bro's record is a whopping 72 hours if I'm not wrong. And he spent the entire time playing computer games and got sent to the hospital HAHAHA.

Met Jer in town after his ball game. We had pepperlunch! Love the beef pepper lunch thingo. And I saw Beam(!) and Chris at Lido!!! Played pool/9 ball with Jer, explored Forum (I haven't been there before haha), before we decided to head home. Terry called while we were at Raffles Town Club so we got off there and headed off to Barker to pick him up. Spent a looong time at the bus-stop before we decided to head back to town. -.- Got kinda pissed halfway. And upset too. Wasn't in the best of moods today...

Wanted to blog something out but I guess I've cooled down. But I was really fuming just now. All I want to say is this. If someone pays 10 of ks just to get into a school just to try and "fit in", whatever that means, that's really dumb. And wtf that school isn't even that "elite" or "IN". I don't know what makes you think it is a very hip school. Do enlighten me on what you were trying to imply yeah.

Lastly, to move (my blog) or not to move? That is the question.

www.quizbox.com

How do you behave when in love?

Here is the analysis:

You could be heading for trouble if you don't loosen up just a little bit. Don't be so suspicious of him. He did have a life before he met you. You are too pessimistic about your relationship, and this could, ironically, be the reason that it will eventually end. Cut him some slack, and you'll find he comes back to you of his own accord anyway.


Ah. Sorry baby. :(



EDIT;

Journey to the Real You

Here is the analysis:

You have 7 true friends.
You will have 1 true love before getting married.
It is your work ethic that you ignore the oasis and keep going towards to the city.
Here is the description of your ideal mate: "Knowledgeable"
MC is the person you will never get over for the rest of your life.
You give 100% in a relationship.

AMG (at analysis number one, two and five).


Ok. Dad just came into my room. At 6:40 in the morning. Just to weigh himself. And smirk to me after that (cos he lost another kilogram), before going back to his room to sleep. :l I have a very weight conscious family. Big bro's been using my weighing scale frequently as well. Can't blame me for wanting to lose weight, can you. :)

Uhhh... wtf. :l

Day 17

I gained back the weight i lost. WHYYYYYY. Okay I'm going on a diet again. Actually it's not a diet. It's a change of lifestyle. Hurrhurr diets don't ever work you know. Have to change your lifestyle. So from now on, NO snacks for me. Except on special occasions hahaha which will be like everyday? :( Gotta be determined. No late night meals. Would go on and on but I know you won't wanna read an entire post about my diet, AGAIN. HAHA Miss Tan are you reading this. You must have read at least 10 entries on my never-seem-to-work-diets.

Woke up at about five pm. Changed and went off to meet Jer and Nat somewhere near Park Mall. Walked over to Cathay to purchase tickets for The Protege, only to find out that Nat screwed up the timings. AGAIN -.- at this rate we'll never ever catch The Protege. The last show was at 6:40pm and it was already 7+. GG so we decided to catch Pursuit of Happiness instead.

Had dinner with Nat, Jer, Colin and Claud before the movie. Stole Colin's bento... I'm sooo sorry hahahaha. Anyway the movie was pretty good. 4 out of 5 popcorns I guess. Stayed outside Cathay for a damn long time as we weren't sure where to go next. In the end, Nat Jer and I headed home while Claud went to her friend's birthday party and Colin went to. Er. Idk where...

ANYWAY. Jer brought his P6 yearbook today. And and I saw MC and HAHAHAHAHAHA ok he was damn cute. I mean, he's still cute now but haha ok nevermind. :(

Oh and Claud was asking me if I applied for my O Levels yet. I said no and she was like ??? "I think registration closed already!" So I panicked and called Ms Tan and Mr Tom and both told me the same thing. That they THINK registration's closed. Was in a pretty horrified mood for the rest of the night. I mean, chances are that I can only retake Os NEXT YEAR??! ....until I saw this poster thing at Dhoby Ghaut MRT, stating that private candidates for N, O and A Levels can register online from the 12TH OF MARCH. I was shrieking and laughing and I couldn't stop staring at the poster. Kept going back to re-read it to make sure I didn't read wrongly. Finally, Nat asked me if I'd like to take a photo with it. -.- Very funny Nat.

Day 16

Woke up at 6pm today. Was greeted with a "woah. morning!" from Claudia haha. Told her I'm retaking my Os and we've decided to work really hard and get into ACJC together. Why AC? I have no idea. Really. Maybe it's because it'd be nice to have someone together beside me working hard for the same JC. If I had it my way (have the right subject combination - e.g. Pure Sciences, AMath(!)), I'd actually aim for IB. No points for guessing correctly why (haha). Had a really boring day today. Did the usuals - eat, tv, computer, eat somemore.

Am contemplating about moving my blog to either livejournal or xanga. More on the latter though. Photo uploading seems a lot easier there. And of course another thing... (Copied and pasted from the web itself as there's something wrong with my printscreen button)

(Chubb Pacific Underwritting Management Svcs Pte Ltd) [Label IP Address]
Singapore, Singapore, Singapore, 9 returning visits
Date
Time
WebPage
1st March 2007
02:41:46 PM
No referring link dichh.blogspot.com/


And I only know of one person who works at along the lines of the above mentioned (Chubb Pacific).

Mom, if it's you, can you stop reading my blog! And during office hours too! It's no wonder you have to bring your work home to finish up everyday haha. And no wonder you know it's been a long time since I last went out with MC although I keep lying to you. (Cos I know you'll think he has another girlfriend or that I'm not as in love with him as before etc.) And it's no wonder you know it when I get all upset etc etc etc. OEIIIII :( Invasion of privacy please! I'll move my blog and not tell you about it. Or maybe you can treat me to another round of crab noodles at Don and I'll see how I feel about this after that. Smiles :)




















On the other hand, Mom, there's this really nice limited edition Dior saddle bag on sale right now. And I really like this one. Very very much. And don't you think we need a digital camera in the house? You'd like to see more pictures of me and MC right? This is one reason why you don't get to see em cos I don't have a freaking digital camera to catch shots of us. And it's been a long time since we last went shopping! See I don't bitch about you or Dad in my blog like some other kids do. I'm a veeeeerrrrryyyy good daughter and that deserves some pampering right? :)

Gonna cook noodles now! Yeah at five in the morning haha but you forgot about my body clock. It's only about 8pm according to it so YAY IT'S DINNERTIME!

Day 15

Haven't seen you for two weeks already. Baby, I miss you so much you stupid Australian-Chinese IB Boy. (How ironic. The words stupid and IB, that is.)

I finally learned how to set up a haloscan. HAHA. K I'm pretty slow aren't I. Anyway, I accidentally clicked on some button on the template page and it reverted back to my previous template. Oh well I don't really care. Don't intend on changing it back. The links side look a little bare I know but its such a pity that so many of my friends (AKA ADAM) don't update their blogs anymore. Tag please it look really pathetic with 0 comments hahaha.

Slept at 6am last night. There's something seriously wrong with my body clock (as you can see from the timing of this post as well). Woke up at 10am as I had to meet Coach Liu at TP (he was going to try and help me get into the course as he's the new volleyball coach for TP). Cabbed down as always as I really don't fancy the walk from the entrance to the sportshall. Turned out it was a wasted trip as he did not know I had already spoken to the teacher-in-charge. False hopes -.- (And money wasted on the cab fare. AND MY SLEEP!) The teacher told me the same old stuff like he's trying his best, he'd love to have me in the team etc etc I don't really want to carry on.

Coach Liu was really apologetic ha don't really blame him I didn't clarify with him. He drove me to town as he was on his way to CCAB. Cheryl was late late late late! Never trust Cheryl when she says she's reaching. Her near = five hundred kilometers away :(

Had subway at Far East. MMM cold cut trio + lettuce + onions + cheese + sweet onion sauce + mayo before heading to lido to check the movie timings. It was one-thirty at that time and we bought tickets for a two-thirty show (Norbit). And Cheryl was like "Yay we can go in now!" :l :l :l sigh. Bimbos.

Anyway, Norbit was pretty okay to me, despite my friends negative critics. Or maybe it's just because the movie I watched before it was Epic Movie. Haha do the math see if you know what I mean.

Shopped around wisma while waiting for our movie to start and after our movie but I didn't see anything I REALLY wanted. :( I need a wardrobe-makeover.

I took TWO HOURS to get home from town. Don't ask why. Zzz.

Gotta stop munching on snacks. Late nights make me hungry :( I just finished wiping off a packet of seaweed, a mug of coke, mini-oreos (!), an egg tart. Drinking orange juice now. Wanna go cook noodles. HAHA. I'm really not the least bit sleepy.

And I miss MC...(please refer to the first line of this post) :(.

Patches

Time passes so damn quickly these days. A few quick updates on what stuff I forgot to blog about due to my failing memory before I get to today's post! (edit; which will be in another post judging from how long this post is and I'm only halfway through!)
EXTREMELY LENGTHY AND WORDY POST. SKIPPING OF THIS POST IS ADVISED.
Honestly, I don't really blog for the sake of blogging now. It's just somewhere where I pen down my life ATM, just so when I grow up I can read it and recall the past. And I really need it cos my memory is really failing me (at the age of 17 can you imagine.)
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Crashed PJC somewhere in late January together with Roy, Cheryl and her friend from crescent. Had to get up at the ungodly hour of 5am because it was all the way in woodlands and I had to catch the first bus if I wanted to reach school on time. Had such a great time there exploring the school, hiding in the staff cubicle (while waiting for assembly to be over) cam-whoring the entire time (while Cheryl attempted to eat her sausage mcmuffin on the dustbin. Gross haha), hanging out with Sit's friends like Arif who had such a hard time guessing who my boyfriend was (hahahaha), wanting to buy food from the cafe, Roy pulling me away from the cafe countless amount of times insisting that I'm on a diet, Cheryl feeling sorry for me but still restricting what I eat (I still ate alot anyway hahaha), just plain bitching about some of the other kids in PJ etc etc it was soooo fun!
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Crashed TJC early Febuary (I think!) with Roy, Wei Jian and Su Yee. It was on the other hand, boring. Just plain boring. We went into the library and it was in total silence so we communicated via whispers. Stepped out and I was still whispering (due to brain malfunction) cos there was no difference in the sound level of the environment inside and outside of the library. Perhaps it was just that day but holy crap that school is so b-o-r-i-n-g.

I think I blogged about this already. I really can't remember but I'll just mention it again. The super unfortunate incident of running into the ONLY H1 Math teacher. I thought I did my "homework" already so I was really confident when this teacher approached us asking us what class we're from etc. Answered all his questions and then he asked "Aren't you guys suppose to be in a Math test now?" I replied that we take H1 Math, hence it's a free period. So he confiscated our student passes on the spot and told us to go for our H2 Math test. And said that there's only ONE H1 math class for the J1s and he's teaching that class. Imagine the look on our faces. Gee.

Well the only good thing about this crash was that I got to catch up with JX again. She was really happy to see me hahahaha. Gave her a kiss on her cheek when I left. That's how much i missed her. Haven't seen her for about a year already!
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Verdict? NY is still the best. But of course it won't ever be the same without the clique aka Beam, Su Yee, Roy and Joe. Furthermore, we were from the same OG. Time to insert a cliche line; You guys will never be forgotten!
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I'm not sure whether I've mentioned this before but out of the 5 polytechnics, the only courses which appeal to me are Law and Management (TP) and Psychology and Community Service (NP). Only these two. And I'd rather retake my O Levels than do a course which doesn't even appeal to me in the first place for three years. Bleugh.

Headed to TP around Mid-Feb together with my parents to appeal for Law and Management. Brought down my portfolio. Turned out the cut-off point for that course is 14 for L1R4. 14. 14?! You know, people who score well enough to get into a JC can you please just get your asses in a JC and stop fighting for places in polytechnics. It irks people like me big time. Single pointers who apply for poly, I really don't know what you're thinking. K off-topic anyway I tried to enter via JPSAE (hence the portfolio for volleyball). The guy was really pleased to see me for some reason, said that he heard that I was coming down and said he'll try his best to help me. But my score is really too far off from the cut-off point so my chances of getting into TP's L&M is really slim.

I applied online for NP's P&CS via JPSAE as well. The only difference is I didn't personally make a trip down. But they got back to me already. "We regret to inform you that you have not been selected for the JPSAE blahblahblahihungupalreadysoIdon'tknowwhatelsethevoicethingsaid."

So there you have it. What do you think? St. Francis? Ha whatever it is, I'll just have to wait till tuesday when the postings are released. I didn't even fill out the JAE form damnit. JPSAE *crosses fingers.
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Speaking of St. Francis, Kenneth almost gave me a heart attack the other day. I told him I might be going over to St. Francis during Jeremy's CNY BBQ. His reaction was a tad queer, like he kept asking me why aren't I considering poly, isn't it very expensive, why do I want to go there for etc etc etc. Turns out he thought I was going to SAN FRANCISCO. WTF HAHAHAHAHAA ok sorry fyi I'm NOT going to San Francisco. The school is only at Bukit Timah! (With a shuttlebus to the school every morning how cool is that?)
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Celebrated Daddy's birthday on Tuesday. Benson kept telling Dad "Two years more till you get rich". CPF hahaha! Anyway I'm really glad Mom and Dad got back their CPF from the bank. They actually took their CPF away when Dad's business failed. I mean, that's not allowed AT ALL. It's a long story on why they were allowed to actually take it in the first place but to sum it up, God creates miracles. Ask me for the full story if you want but it's rather long and if I don't have the time ATM I'd just ignore you (hahahaha).
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K done with this post I think. If you read the whole thing, gosh you really must be extremely free or something. Check the later post for today/yesterday's proper entry. Adios.