haha. since when have you started going to sleep early. if it was during like your exam period, i would of course understand. times have really changed. last time, i pwn sleep, i pwn dota etc etc. now its EVERYTHING pwns me. so you're going to say volleyball pwns you? haha. at least that's better than 'everything'.
last night you said 'aiya forget it i can't be bothered talking to you you obviously just want my attention'. hello. OF COURSE I FREAKING WANT YOUR ATTENTION! which bloody person wouldn't want attention from his/her own boyfriend/girlfriend? haha. maybe just you? and don't tell me i've got enough attention from you. for like 1 month + 2 weeks, or maybe three weeks even, how much attention have i gotten from you, really. the attention i get from my friends definitely beats the attention you give me. what do you think i cut myself for. you know the fucking amount of attention you give me when i do that? and the concern in your eyes?!
and i still can't seem to forget what you said the other night. 'if i call you every night and have a nice talk talk, every night we spend, lets say, 10 minutes (TEN MINUTES???!) talking. 1 month i would have spent 5 hours on the phone calls.' well lets just say i was speechless when you said this.
and i find it odd that you deleted my email instead of deleting other people's useless emails like that tagged email from r* and that months-old friendster invitation from m*. i don't wanna go on. i mean i'm not jealous that you're receiving emails from your female friends; cos i think its perfectly fine, or that i'm angry cos you deleted my email; it was a stupid email anyway...right? its just that i don't get the logic. and its just, odd. if i get an email from you (IF = if that day ever comes), i will definitely not delete it. haha. maybe its just cos the love we have for one another is on different levels. no prize for guessing who loves who more.
yesterday, you said your dad's coming back for a visit today so you can't call me from tonight onwards in case he hears. you said he's flying back to hk next week but it could be friday for all i know. so yesterday was the last night we can ever talk on the phone before your dad leaves. it was almost 1230am so i figured you weren't going to call. so i just layed down on my bed, reading your past messages to me. messages from a few months ago. everything sounded so different. i started crying. and then suddenly i saw your name on the incoming phone call. i cried even harder cos i was just really happy. and then we just had to quarrel again. and you said stuff like i always cry cry cry don't even know what i'm crying about. really didn't know how to react to that so i just cried somemore. haha i know it was silly but i just couldn't stop the tears and you didn't seem to understand.
read your email for more. i know you hate me blogging about all our problems. you hate letting others know about our problems. when i really can't take it any longer and go to my friends to let them console me whilst i spill my frustrations and unhappiness to them, you get angry. last time you said if i really have to talk to someone, i can talk to you. hahahahahaha speechless...
sometimes, i really wonder what would have happened if i never went to zhiwei's celebration on the 11th. i really enjoyed the 5-month period i spent with you before we got together. talking on msn till 7, 8am, spending hours with you on the phone, both parties being constantly amazed at how we can keep talking to each other for hours and hours and never run out of topic to talk about. haha and not forgetting the silly fights we had before we even became an item. and how you pretended to be your brother so 'your bro' can tell how sad you are when i ignored you and all and how cute you sounded when you admitted that you pretended to be your bro. maybe it was meant to stay that way. we were so much happier back then, weren't we?
last night you said 'aiya forget it i can't be bothered talking to you you obviously just want my attention'. hello. OF COURSE I FREAKING WANT YOUR ATTENTION! which bloody person wouldn't want attention from his/her own boyfriend/girlfriend? haha. maybe just you? and don't tell me i've got enough attention from you. for like 1 month + 2 weeks, or maybe three weeks even, how much attention have i gotten from you, really. the attention i get from my friends definitely beats the attention you give me. what do you think i cut myself for. you know the fucking amount of attention you give me when i do that? and the concern in your eyes?!
and i still can't seem to forget what you said the other night. 'if i call you every night and have a nice talk talk, every night we spend, lets say, 10 minutes (TEN MINUTES???!) talking. 1 month i would have spent 5 hours on the phone calls.' well lets just say i was speechless when you said this.
and i find it odd that you deleted my email instead of deleting other people's useless emails like that tagged email from r* and that months-old friendster invitation from m*. i don't wanna go on. i mean i'm not jealous that you're receiving emails from your female friends; cos i think its perfectly fine, or that i'm angry cos you deleted my email; it was a stupid email anyway...right? its just that i don't get the logic. and its just, odd. if i get an email from you (IF = if that day ever comes), i will definitely not delete it. haha. maybe its just cos the love we have for one another is on different levels. no prize for guessing who loves who more.
yesterday, you said your dad's coming back for a visit today so you can't call me from tonight onwards in case he hears. you said he's flying back to hk next week but it could be friday for all i know. so yesterday was the last night we can ever talk on the phone before your dad leaves. it was almost 1230am so i figured you weren't going to call. so i just layed down on my bed, reading your past messages to me. messages from a few months ago. everything sounded so different. i started crying. and then suddenly i saw your name on the incoming phone call. i cried even harder cos i was just really happy. and then we just had to quarrel again. and you said stuff like i always cry cry cry don't even know what i'm crying about. really didn't know how to react to that so i just cried somemore. haha i know it was silly but i just couldn't stop the tears and you didn't seem to understand.
read your email for more. i know you hate me blogging about all our problems. you hate letting others know about our problems. when i really can't take it any longer and go to my friends to let them console me whilst i spill my frustrations and unhappiness to them, you get angry. last time you said if i really have to talk to someone, i can talk to you. hahahahahaha speechless...
sometimes, i really wonder what would have happened if i never went to zhiwei's celebration on the 11th. i really enjoyed the 5-month period i spent with you before we got together. talking on msn till 7, 8am, spending hours with you on the phone, both parties being constantly amazed at how we can keep talking to each other for hours and hours and never run out of topic to talk about. haha and not forgetting the silly fights we had before we even became an item. and how you pretended to be your brother so 'your bro' can tell how sad you are when i ignored you and all and how cute you sounded when you admitted that you pretended to be your bro. maybe it was meant to stay that way. we were so much happier back then, weren't we?
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