crying again. this time for a totally different reason. i'm touched. by my friends. after i read sheena's tag, i started tearing but i started crying when karmen said 'alot of pple do care abt u honey'. i don't know. then i remembered yuhan asking me today what's with my blog, saying that i don't sound like the bernie she used to know. sheena included. maybe i'm just an emoshit these days. didn't know so many people care about me. haha that's true. always thought i was some loser. i mean, i wasn't exactly the most popular girl since young. people these days are superficial beings. skin-deep. they might say they're not, but deep down inside somewhere people are still pretty superficial. ever wondered why the pretty girls get all the attention. haha ok this will be in another post. or maybe not. i'm tired of being emo. but i can't seem to stop.

something to ponder about: how come the person i want to be cared by isn't caring about me?