In 2006...

i've fallen in love. hehehe

i love baby pictures will be up tomorrow we look like shit love the nye dinner had my chuka hotate + tempura soft shell crab yay yay yayyyyy training tomorrow imma ballpicker now \m/ everyone can feel that the air between me and coach now is vvv different as compared to last time. i know. but there's nothing i can do about it. i'm gonna tolerate it until the day comes when i can no longer do so and just let that red ball of anger out in rants. at him. hahahaha yes i dare to just yell at him i mean me, ballpicker? i don't wanna sound conceited but really. wtf. he was the one who asked me to apply for dsa and just cos he doesn't think i can get in he just chucks me aside? really wonder why i spoke up for him last time when people like rena told me what he's really like -.- and i found out the truth the hard way. gaiobnaiovbnepvmqpvnerobwim ok bye and gurmit singh can't rap for nuts hahahahaha oooh the original prankster performance thing going on right now ain't that bad did anybody see the music video of original prankster by the offspring before? I SAW IT WHEN I WAS LIKE TEN? ELEVEN? EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW HAHAHAHAHHA ok bye

hiiiii he's coming back from hk later in the afternoon yay no more lonely days!

alright just a quick update. ain't really into blogging these days... bet baby's like going YES!!!!! cos he doesn't like my blog much i think but whatever hahahaha.

well i'm officially going into NYJC for the first three months. although my prelims didn't make it... well i don't know how to explain it here but i just made it in through DSA so i have to attend trainings during that three months (actually only slightly more than two). no big deal there right everyone knows how much i love vball. but

1. I kinda lost my passion for vball already. Reckon it's cos I've been workin' and the absence of trainings and such made me lose interest in it. I mean seriously. I'm so not gamed for shuttle runs nor lifting weights -.-


2. Coach said something on wednesday which obviously implied that he doesn't really regard me as part of the NYJC team. Those who were there should know. And I distinctly heard a nas junior whisper to another teammate "then bernie leh?" when he was assigning positions to the team. Haha. Don't ask me. I don't know either.

so yeah. was in a dilemma that day. cos i wasn't sure if i was officially under NYJC (because my prelims didn't make it) but i was willing to just crash the school under mr. tham's help just for the training. but on the other hand coach kinda made it clear that he doesn't really see me as part of the team (oh btw it's cos he doesn't think i scored well enough to get in -.-) so there's no reason why i should just invite myself to the training sessions.

but then mr. tham told me i really am officially under NYJC which pretty much made the decision for me. there's no other end to it haaaa. at least i still have my fer during trainings haha.

went out with fer today! or rather, yesterday. was going around finding a top to buy and change into cos for some reason i felt really uncomfortable in my esprit tee hahaha. bryan was there too. they made me feel weird. ya know, like a lightbulb. but it was pretty ok until we met up with laura and daryl. then i reaaaallly reaaaallly felt reaaaaallly weird hahaha ok i shall stop whining. anyway jerrybro was like "see la i told you you'd feel extra you should have gone out with us" when i told him about my day just now. hahahaha :( x1000

went to eat at marina bay after that. twas miss tan's birthday celebration yay yay yay i sat beside her hahahaha i think i traumatised her with my evil twin righhhht. got a ride home. YESSSS hahahaha ok i don't know why i just love getting rides home. :( i sound like a lazyass haha whatever.

training later at two thirty and i'm still awake i have no idea why i can't sleep. at least he's coming back tomorrow. yay. bye.

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you

Thank you sam + eunice for the lovely earrings + elephant figurines, wendy + samuel for the guylian seashell chocs + rainbow candy cane + oreo thing (which tasted reaaaally good ;D) + melty kisses + ferreror rocher, joanna/wanna for the wonderful chocolatworld chocs (and the extra ribbons hahahahaha), amanda + keli + zihua (omg i dunno how to spell your name!) for the fab cookie mon cookies!!! Work today was great with the presents. Many thanks to you who flew away to hong kong on christmas day :( i know its not your fault. Anticipating for your return. Know what my colleague said? She said that she somehow can tell that, although we're not exactly back with each other and our relationship ain't all that stable yet, i still do really love you. HEEEE -makes mini snoogle jump around.


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WHY did i have to stumble upon her blog again. This time landing on all her archives. I seriously felt as though someone just punched all the air out of me as I read through her archives. Ctrl+F-ing your name or just plain scanning through everything to see what was said about you. Although they were dated to about a year back, it still fucking hurts that my suspicions at that time were right. You were playing me or rather, just leading me on at that time, making me think I was the only one you were interested in. Couldn't breathe at all as I continued to read and read and read and read... Wondering who I'm talking about (both the owner of the blog + the 'leader')? mestika, you should know who they are.

a fulfilling dinner....























....at 1am in the morning. ASSSSSSS :( gonna gain even more weight now. samantha + eunice pls help meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! while working i keep eating. and eating. and eating. and then i eat somemore. and then i sit on the droste boxes and eat somemore. and right now i'm still eating. eff.

If a picture is worth a thousand words,

then this must be worth 1000 (x100000) words. k i'm (obviously) just exaggerating
i have no idea how many pictures are there in the vid and i can't really be bothered to count them but haaaaaa i'll just let the vid do the talking today i'm really too damn exhausted to blog i hate last-minute shoppers they kept me on my feet practically the entire day its gonna be hell during the weekend. anyway...



credits to miss tan. one of my most fav videos, EVER. hehehehehhe thanks for visiting me today and i'm vvv surprised you actually bought something hahahahahahahahahahaha k i just made you sound like a cheapo but i don't care thanks again byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

oh and please ignore my retarded pictures i think i wasn't in the right state of mind when i took them. ah i'm damn sad the pictures this video has depicts me as a retard. :( (x1000)

i love off days!

stop giving me crap like you love me. if you do you wouldn't be saying things to make me sound so sleazy and all. i let boys touch me? i did a stripshow at nicole's party? hahahahahhaha thanks for making me sound like a whore. if you do love me, you wouldn't flare up at me over such minor things. can't believe how unwilling you can get when i ask you to visit me at my workplace. and don't fucking play me. i told you something about a year ago. i'd rather play than get played. two can play your dumb game. town is inconvenient for you? fuck if even town is inconvenient for you i think the day you finally get all willing to make a trip down my workplace is when i'm working at like holland v or something. actually i think even then you'll still come up with some cock excuse to not come. you just hate inconveniencing yourself. you'd rather let me do the travelling. you fucking pampered mummy's boy. i hate you. i wish your dad isn't so rich. hell you're not even the rich one its your dad i don't even know why you keep throwing your weight around. i hate you. bye. (U)

full shift today, morning shift tomorrow. YESSSSSS!!!! -.-

i kinda like working in town. get to meet aloooot of people whom i've never seen for a looooong time. like yuzhen, whom i just saw the other day with her mom! haven't seen her for about a year + sharon, who was in perth studying but she came back not long ago AND SHE SAID I LOOK LIKE I LOST ALOT OF WEIGHT SINCE THE LAST TIME SHE SAW ME HAHAHAHAHAHA but aiya keyword is look :(

the woman came back to my workplace to look for me again, this time asking me to take part in some runway show :l samantha said she seems really keen on me but can't imagine myself doing a runway show i'll proly do something really me. like tripping over the skirt or something. so i said no (duh) hahahahaha i'll be like falling flat on my face :(

went to look at the swarovski crystal things (during a self-declared breaktime hahahahha) and fuck. i fell in love with the piano. and the butterfly. and the chess set. and the piano. and the huge 9000++ one. and the piano. and the piano. AND the piano. k i think you get my point.

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....BABYYYYYYYYYYY I LIKE THE PIANO SWAROVSKI CRYSTAL ITS ONLY 100+++ YOU KNOW HEHEHEHE AND I CAN HELP YOU GET A TEN PERCENT OFF OKOKOK OK THANK YOU I LOVE YOU!

actually no la i'd rather you get something i can actually use. although the crystal really IS very pretty....and i wouldn't mind having it....but practical things come first right haha i know that's what you're gonna say. or you're gonna say i always waste your money. booja.

thought i saw weyzi in town today with his girlfriend hahahaha they stopped by my counter and she wanted to buy stuff!! but he kept dissuading her -.- but aiya damn sad he never say hi to me i don't think he even recognised me so i don't think its him cos there's no way he can't recognise me. either that or he just pretended he doesn't know me which wasn't very nice hahahahaha

OMG KAI CAME BY TODAY HAHA ARE YOU READING WHO WAS THAT BOY WITH YOU ARE YOU CHEATING ON ME :'( hahahahahaha eh you never buy anything :(

i think kevin is damn funny haha i don't know why his actions and all just seem damn retarded to me and it cracks me up all the time hahahahahahahahhahaha ok nvm. anyway sigh it turned out that baby wasn't lying to me last time. the thing about acsi people having gfs and all. unless kevin was lying to me but then again why would he lie to me -.- lol. sigh babyyyyyyyyyyy! sorry for not believing you ah :(

oh yeah i went shopping with wendy and fabian during lunch time. twas more of window shopping for me i had no cash. wendy did all the buying. fabian just dragged himself around and finally just settled on the adidas seat hahahha i saw this DAMN NICE le coq jacket it is damn nice damn nice damn nice

i like rainy nights. i like soya bean milk. i like popcorn chicken. i like chocolate pancake. i like milk tea. i like tako pachi. i like cream puffs. i like noodle omelette. i like tori-q. i like chocolate french. i like losing weight. (hahaha)

bye i'm so going to be like a zombie at work tomorrow morning :(

i've got a sore throat. a really bad one. started croaking out christmas carols at my workplace today and everyone was like SHHHHHHHH!!!! :( yeah its that bad. it doesn't hurt anymore hahaha its the first time whereby strepsils really DOES help! i know some girls who'd die for this voice though. they think its sexy. and i know of some who purposely chomps on chocs + chips just to get a sore throat cos then they'll get that voice. the ultimate of those mainstream teens i'd say. but heck nowadays everyone i know is a mainstream idiot, including me hahahahahahahah ok not funny :(

walked over to the main counter to get helen to sign my time-sheet. kevin was there and then we just started talking and then he suddenly asked which school i'm from. and then i replied "ngee ann, why?" and then he said "then how you know ming chun?" and i almost fainted hahahahahahahaha cos it was DAMN sudden. like i know kevin saw me walking together with him during lunch time but i didn't know he actually knew him! in the end kevin told me he's from acsi as well which pretty much explained everything.

i was so freaking irritated in the morning. i woke up at like 8.40am. got dressed and all by 9. decided to cab down town and be early for once. in the end not only did i wait 30 minutes for a cab, i got caught in this jam along the TPE for another 30 minutes and it only cleared at the cairhill exit. practically ran to my counter although we weren't allowed to do that hahahha. by then my bosses were all calling me up cos i'm the only one on morning shift today. to sum it up, i could have saved $$$ and taken the mrt instead. would have reached my workplace EARLIER WTF :(

eh come visit me at me workplace leh :( and bring some $$$$ to spend :D miss tan are you reading this :( the directions to my workplace is just a post below this!

AND OMG AH THERE'S THIS DAMN DAMN CUTE M&M CANDY DISPENSER WHICH JUST CAME IN TODAY THERE ARE FIVE DESIGNS I THINK I'M GONNA BUY THEM FOR MY TEAM MATES THEY ARE SO FREAKING CUTE WE JUST STARTED SQUEALING WHEN SAMANTHA LIFTED THE LID OFF THE BOX OH OH AND THE DESIGN WITH THE BAKER HAS MY NAME ON IT SO HANDS OFF HAHAHAHHAAHHAHA BYE

retail therapy with mommy; yesterday, today, tomorrow, day after, everyday!

need to get a digicam. the nice camera shop uncle wanted to sell a 10megapix one to me at $600 hahahahahah k nvm.

going to quit this bloody tedious job soon.

on hiatus till... idk when. just lost to mood to blog. guess i've been too busy and exhausted lately. byebye.

OMG YAY baby's going to visit me tomorrow. happy bernie! ok byebye

Oh and btw those who wanna visit me at my workplace, you aren't allowed to visit me unless you're gonna buy something hahahaha cos i say so! just kidding anyway i'm located at the promotional area which is right at the back of basement two, the same area as tori-q, takopachi etc etc except i'm located riiiiiiight at the end, near the payment counters for cold storage, just in front of japanese resturant (aji-tei if i'm not wrong hahaha i'll check again). just ring me up if you decide to pop by and can't find the place. i'm workin every single day hahahahha rarely have off-days. i have an evil boss. and please bring some money to buy stuff cos we have to hit the sales target of 74k by xmas. nods. like what i said just now, i have a very evil boss.

Snippets of everything

i'm never gonna use veet ever again. its like a max of 6 minutes right and i always exceed the time limit leading to those chemical burns on my legs. and its damn fuckin itchy so i scratch it and it bleeds and it leaves a scar and i have about 100 burns (ok maybe just about 10) alrd :(

lets see. i had an apple in the morning. sushi in the afternoon. ajisen (volcano ramen!!!! :D) for dinner. and i just ate a slice of cake. noooooooooooooo

some lady approached me while i was working yesterday and asked me to join some dancing thing which will be held at the end of this month. wtf do i look like i can dance? i can't dance for nuts hahahahhaha

sliced my finger with this hugeee penknife this morning. was trying to slice off a cord and i sliced my finger instead the cut was so deep it started dripping blood and the guy who loan me the penknife looked horrified. like :O :O :O :O :O no kidding. it started bleeding again in ajisen ha shit i hope the blade wasn't rusty or anything...it was kinda black at the edge :(

went shoppin with dad and mom! :D they came down to taka and after dinner we went shopping :D we kinda went around town and i got most of my stuff from centerpoint hahahaha i rarely step into that place. got a new pair of black jeans + a long sleeve reebok tee + a regular t-shirt which mom picked out for me heheeeeeeee wanted to buy more but mom was tired :( there was this really nice lookin blue top at mango but the sleeves were elastic and i didn't like the feeling :(

anyway prom was alright. will just sum everything up into point forn(cos i can't really remember what happened! :( )
- food was great (hahahahahha).
- went up to the suite when i reached and omg its devastatingly beautiful la :(
- and the gown turned out to be too big for me i had to keep pulling it up (cos it was a tube sorta gown you see) the entire night
- + i forgot to bring a necklace so my neck looked pretty much bare.
- sitting beside shawn was kinda hilarious hahahaha shawn was the pimp of the night weren't you shawn!
- and o.m.g to that thing about tat and liting. not that i'm not happy for them its just one of the more unexpected (!) and unlikely to happen kinda thing :l
- nicole won miss ngee ann hahahahahhaha yay!
- kason's band was great! pride of R6 i'd say!
- there was some lucky draw thing and bliss got the first prize but she was in the washroom at that time so they drew out another number (omg bliss hahahhaha).
- and did i mention that the food was great!!!! :D:D:D
- oh and i did my own make-up hahahahha had help with the eyeliner and blusher i don't know how in the world to put on anything other than foundation + eyeshadow. i even screwed up at applying mascara hahahahaha i should take up lessons :(

sya's dad is damn nice ah! asked him to drop me off at the bus stop and then he asked where i'm heading to and i said clementi and he drove me alllllll the way there when he's heading towards the tampines area hahahaahahhaha

oh yeah. matt came down to taka last night to collect the remaining 7 tickets for flow. nice chap. not only did he travel all the way down, he even gave me commission for the three tickets i sold although min. amount to sell in order to get comm is 10 tics hahahahhaha alright i'm officially washing my hands clean from these kinda business. don't wanna get into this sorta thing anymore. told matt that last night hahahaha i think i told him to leave me alone or something omg i just realised i must have sounded damn rude. uh...

standing for 9+ hours straight is so not fun. standing for 9+ hours straight in court shoes ain't fun at all. :'( feet were killing me yesterday. so i just wore sport shoes to work today hahahahaha

people from R6 if you're reading this, can you pleaaaase send over the pictures from prom night hahahaha so far i've only gotten the ones from sam's cam and zomg i look like shit in all of them or maybe its just me hahahahhahhaha whatever it is just send them over alright!

don't even know what's happening between you and me. sigh. snoogle. bye. will post pictures another day. when i find un-shitty ones hahahahhaha bye

Things to do before prom

1. Bathe (+ condition hair its in a terrible state for some reason. reckon cos i slept without waiting for it to dry :( )
2. Veet time hahahahahaha
3. Paint fingernails + toenails
4. Pack travelling bag for tonight
5. Pack clutch
6. Reach baby's house at 4.30pm to collect the camera (yes pictures!!)
7. Reach Raffles Town Club at 5++
8. Crash xm's room and change into my prom gown (who's wearing purple :( )
9. Make-up! (no i'm not doing my hair. can't be bothered hahahahah)
10. Cam-whore! Cam-whore! Cam-whore! Cam-whore!!!

k gee i just took out my prom gown and it looks a tad bit small to me now. i don't even wanna think about what that means.

in order; cereal + milk + chicken pao + siew mai + chocolate french roll + mini chocolate donut + noodle omelette + soft shell crab + a bit of baby's black pepper beef ramen + ice lemon tea + blueberry bread + soya bean milk + tuna salad sushi + roasted chicken + seaweed + pork floss bun = food consumed today = it's no wonder why i don't lose any weight these days = what if i can't fit into my prom gown tomorrow... :( x 10000000

A really late reply...

http://dichh.blogspot.com/2006/11/just-few-personal-messages.html#comments
ok shit i'm sooo sorry i just saw the comment you left me. its not everyday someone comments on the blogger's comment box but better late than never anyway. i don't know who you are but thanks alot for your comment! (and idk but for some reason you're typing like miss tan hahahaha but i think i might be wrong huh cos she doesn't have the courage to tag on my blog often much less comment hahahahaha omg i'm so gonna get scolded) ok anyway, i really appreciate what you said. it made me feel a whole lot better about the incident. not that i haven't gotten over it but it just brought me a whole new outlook to it. i'll definitely keep your words in mind. God bless tc and thanks once again

stupid hairdresser said that the ends of my hair's damaged and haveta cut off alot and i said nvm i'll wait for my hair to grow even longer before cutting it off but she snipped it off anyway! :'( i have freaking short hair now. cries

anyway i changed my mind.
cold cut trio + non-toasted italian bread + cheese + lettuce + sweet onion sauce + bacon (!) - all other vegetables including onions excluding lettuce = (L)(L)(L)(L)(L)(L)!

church tomorrow! kinda nervous for some reason :( but i keep thinking about what yc said a few months ago. i told him i'm scared to go back to church cos i haven't gone back for a looooong time and God might be a little angry with me and then he said crazy. imagine if you've been away from home for a loooong time and then you finally decided to go back. they'll of course welcome you back with open arms right. haha right...! i think. i hope. blargh

i just made popiah my way hahahaha it has just crabsticks + egg pieces in it and i got scolded by mom but i ran to my room with it anyway hahahahaha ok nvm.

haven't lost any weight for about a week now. whhhhyyyyyy :'(

kk. gee i'm dead tired. but its ok. i'm waiting for a call. hehehehehehe anyway...

last day of work at the cocoa tree's head office today! :D finally done with all the damn wrapping i swear i don't wanna wrap anything for at least another month or so. eunice and i were so totally brain-dead while wrapping all the tins and stuff. imagine five days worth of that, doing nothing for hours but just wrapping. geeeeeeeeeeeee ok anyway! eunice is coincidentally ralph's girlfriend! hahaha i just casually asked her to show me a pic of her + her bf and then she showed me this picture in her phone. i was like hey that picture looks familiar then i realised i saw it as ralph's dp once and i asked for his name and she said ralph and i was like ralph emmanuel? and she blinked and 'how you know!!!!!'-ed hahahahahahaha twas fun working with her! but she got posted to great world though :( :( :(

oh and we went down to taka yesterday to make our passes. while waiting for the passes to be done we walked around town hahahaha and i bought a belt but i don't really like it cos it doesn't suit my *. not gonna say what it is cos i wanna give baby a surprise and wear it the next time i see him! :D (and babyyy i know you very very veryyyyy well please do NOT bug and ask me what it is ok its a SURPRISE ok? s.u.r.p.r.i.s.e. and no, its not indecent hahahahaha in fact i think you'll like it very very much its like a ok no i can't say ok no don't ask ok :( :( :( ) anyway as i was saying, i don't like the belt much as it doesn't suit my * and i'm proly gonna resell it haha DOES ANYONE WANT ITTT. its an elastic silver three-inch belt with a gold buckle hahahah.

short of cash lately and joyce wouldn't give me my pay for november. said she'll combine that month with dec into one cheque. i bet its only cos she's too lazy to open another cheque for me -.- so even though i'm working, i don't get any extra money as i can't get my pay and i keep spendin' (as usual... -.-). its no wonder there seems to be a problem with my cash flow.

have a $100 bill in my drawer though but i'm gonna rebond my hair tomorrow cos my hair is really in a mess now its neither here nor there and its irritating the crap outta me. anyway i don't want mom to pay for it all. she's spent too much on me lately... oh i did mention the other day that i was going shoppin with her after work right! she spent almost two hundred bucks on me and that's just at one shop imagine if we walked around for a while more....hmm!!!!!!! haha i think daddy's heart ached or something the pain was evidently expressed on his face man. it was either cos mom doesn't spend that sorta money on him, or he just couldn't imagine his daughter spending so much money without even a thought haha which is kinda true... :( anyway i got my jeans + thesecretitem and the cashier asked us to spend another twelve dollars as to be eligible for the membership card and i just grabbed this purple belt don't ask me why hahahahaha and then she asked us to spend another nine bucks to get a $10 voucher or something i dunno it came in a card form. got some purple earrings hahahah PLEASE DON'T ASK ME WHAT'S WITH ME AND PURPLE i think i was just in a trance that night. and gee i betcha didn't know that the insides of my blacks jeans are purple as well haha ok i'll hush. oh and the quality of the membership card sucks like. i don't know. furthermore its the membership card of topshop as well i don't understand why the card is so horrendously (cheap) looking. even the voucher which came in the card form was in a much better form

how come baby haven't call me yet... :(

oh. dad keeps preaching to the whole family. everyday. single. day. scolds us when we don't say grace before we eat our meals. sometimes he even helps the whole family say grace. he just goes 'Thank you Lord for the food'. and he was telling me that he wants to enter bible college once he has enough money. then he beamed at me and i was like ..... + he said that my old dad is gone. the one taking his place is a new dad and he's (quoted) 'A creation of God'. i mean i totally have nothing against christianity! really nothing against it in fact i'm going to church this sunday but its just. weird. and mom was nudging me and saying 'Pastor Chng' (hahahahaha) and dad heard and said as long as we don't mispronounce it and call him bastard chng then he started laughing his head off and i was again left speechless at his behaviour. still love my dad anyway. in fact i think i'm kinda blessed to have such a family haha we can live together harmoniously. gotta thank the Lord for that

anyway, i wanna blog about yesterday's acs concert! (the band one at acsi not the drama one at acbarker haha ai jerald i'm soo sorry i didn't know you were performing you didn't even tell me!) anyway i was so totally astounded by the acjc band. i missed the entire acsi slot -.- but it worked out fine in the end cos he was playing in the ib band! entire concert was totally fabulous esp the fun piece by ib!! i sat with some guy before the intermission and he turned and asked me if i was from acjc and i was like i wish lol. talked for a while more and too bad i changed seats before the ib band played i would have loved to point baby out to him while he was doing that duo piece with that kidcentral kid hahahahha

oh yeah and i ate subway for the first time some time back and i can tell you that (currently) 6-inch cold cut trio + non toasted italian bread + lettuce + onions + sweet onion sauce - the rest of the icky vegetables like pickles (i don't know how kai seems to loveeeeeee them) - cheese = (L)(L)(L)(L)(L)

still haven't got my call :( and its been an hour and a half since i started blogging (haha). oh well. :(

i love my baby... :)

update more later. esp about last night. i love baby. he looked so cute on stage in his black shirt + black pants + red tie and his hair was styled. nods. ok i'm watching survivor now be back later!